Sometimes it's hard not to be stupid

I haven’t started back yet.

I annoy myself when I start to list the reasons – or excuses, I suppose – why I’m still not back on my Weight Watcher’s weight loss plan. I’m in that I’ll start (choose one) tomorrow, Wednesday, Monday, next week phase.

   I get really annoyed with myself when I’m in that phase.

    I know all the right things to say to myself. I know it sounds and seems stupid and ridiculous when I go another day, another week, another MONTH without starting back. I know all this stuff.

   Still, I keep delaying.

  Dumb.

    I got my Weight Watchers tracking booklet and got in the car to go weigh in and re-up today. But on the way, my check-engine light came on, and since I’m driving to Raleigh tomorrow, I thought I’d call the dealership and see what was up with that. They told me to bring it in NOW, because that was the only time during the entire day they had to look at it. So I did. They told me it would take an hour to figure out if something was wrong with it. I told them no way, I didn’t have an hour. So they took an hour and fifteen minutes to tell me it was no big deal and it was fine to drive. Fifty dollars later and nearly 90 minutes later, I went by Weight Watchers, and they had closed.

   So, no weigh in.

    I hesitate to say it – because I KNOW how it sounds – but I do want to go Monday and weigh in, and re-up. A friend has asked me to go with her to a weekly meeting closer to home on Thursday nights. Although I love my leader and group on Fridays, it is a long drive and work demands often keep me from going. I’m thinking about switching to the closer meeting.

    Plus, Gary says having a “partner” will probably help keep me honest. He’s probably right.

    One thing I have to acknowledge – again – is that I’m just not real good with taking breaks from the weight loss plan. I probably shouldn’t have given myself the holidays off. Because it’s always so hard to “resume,” even if you’re resuming a healthy eating style, and not a “diet.”

    I have a history of not being a good “break” person.

    I have a busy work day Monday – I’m already going to have to reschedule my monthly powwow with Dr. Filler – but I’m going to try really hard to get to Weight Watchers to assess the damage I’ve done. If I don’t get there Monday, I’ll definitely get by on Tuesday, because it’s not quite as hectic.

    I just really hope I haven’t gained back all the weight I lost before Thanksgiving.

Comments

[Amy]

Just do it! :)

Weight loss is hard, and people who have never had to do it can never know. I'm not sure that I could do breaks at this point, but no matter how your break went, you have to get back on the proverbial wagon. You can do it!

I think it's a pretty good idea to re-up with a friend. I originally joined with a friend last June (am now down 53.8 lbs as of last Wednesday). She quickly dropped off the program, but I would have never dragged myself in without her.